I don't know if I was expecting anyone to respond... if nobody did I suppose it would have subconsciously validated how I've been feeling lately. Maybe I didn't even want anyone to respond. Well, someone did. My friend Jessica, a friend from high school who I had reconnected with on Facebook, responded and mentioned that her and her husband Brad, who I also went to high school with, were going to go see Black Swan at The Little Theatre downtown and I was welcome to join them. They even had an extra ticket that they would give me. I had no reason to say "no"... yet somehow the fear and doubt started to creep in again. I hadn't seen them since high school... 18 years! Back then, we knew each other and had many mutual friends, but we didn't really run with the same crowd. My brain ran in circles, fear and depression started to take hold... a million doubts poured into my head. Then I thought of my New Year's goals... especially #5:
I will NOT allow depression and fear to keep me at home when I'm invited out by my friends and family.So I said nothing and decided to fight through it and go... and I had a great time. I confirmed for myself that reconnecting with Jessica over the last couple of years on Facebook was not a fluke. After spending time chatting with them and seeing the movie (and getting a heartfelt hug), any fear and doubt that I had was washed away and I was left with the warmth of rediscovered friendship.
Such a wonderful thing :)
In other goal related news...
I finished up my photo restoration project, I honest can't wait see the look on my grandmother-in-law's face when she sees it for the first time.
It will be on to my next short term creative project starting this weekend... I wonder what it should be......?
This just makes me want to deal with Goal #4... right NOW!